When I closed my
eyes for meditation for the first time, I saw only darkness- a vast ocean. I
continued my practice for a few months; a tiny dot started appearing in between
that darkness. The size, colour and stability of that dot changed for the next few
months. Then, it became brighter, wider and steady, with a distinct
recognisable colour. It was just an elemental light representing a particular
element out of five elements Prithvi – Earth, Agni –Fire, Vayu –Wind, Akasa –Sky,
Apas/ Jal –Water. The appearance of light confirmed my progress in
concentration but for further advancement, the dazzling dot had to be ignored.
I continued my
practice for years and years and one day I saw a triangle in meditation. SwamiSivananda says, “One whose food is moderate, whose anger has been controlled,
who has given up all love for society, who has subdued his passions, who has
overcome all pairs (heat and cold etc.) who has given up his egoism, who does
not bless anyone nor take anything from others – such a man during meditation
obtains it (the triangle) in the face.”
Actually, this
happens in the lockdown. Due to COVID 19 spread, I was confined to my home. I had no
other option then to meditate. With restaurant and hotel closed, I was left with
no other option then to eat healthy and nutritive home cooked food. I hardly
get any business calls in a day so my anger was in check. It was useless to get
angry at a virus because it was of no use to shout at someone who could not
hear you. There was no reason to lose temper therefore, I could maintain my
calmness and silence with ease. I could not meet relatives and friends to
shower my love on them as I was confined to my home and I did not have much liking
for chatting on mobile so I was in a sort of solitude. There were not pairs like
friends and enemies but only one thing to protect everyone from that deadly
virus. ‘Vasudev Kutumbkam’ was my dominant thought at that time as virus
could affect anybody and everybody. I was praying for the society under Om Swamiji’s guidance. His words helped me to shed ‘I’ and to think about ‘US’. Beside all this,
I was attending many online Sivananda Yoga classes – Open Class, Kids Yoga,
Advance Yoga, 108 Surya Namaskar Class, Backward Bending, Forward Bending,
Chakra Opener, Mandala Meditation. I even attended Yoga for Seniors because it
was free.
In such a difficult
situation, Nature forced me rather blessed me with a vision of triangle in
meditation!
