To
quench my quest for meditation, I picked up the book ‘Meditation and Mantras’
by Swami Vishnu Devananda from the bookshelf of Nehra Library, Hisar which was
one of the best libraries in India. Although it had a vast collection of books
and journals mostly related to agriculture and its allied subjects even though
it had a good collection of general books. In 1999, I often visited that
library for my research work and sometimes just to pass the time.
I
flipped the pages and saw a smiling photo of Swami Sivananda, founder of Divine
Life Society. His irresistible smile was full of peace, kindness and
compassion. His face was radiating with sheer bliss. Swami Vishnu Devananda had
dedicated this book to his master.
To
know why saints were always smiling, I got that book issued in my name. After
thorough reading, I came to know about different ways of doing meditation as the
theory and practical applicability were explained in detail. I was excited to
try at least one but was not sure whether I would be doing it for long time or
for a brief period just for fun.
I
opted for the easiest one - Japa Meditation. It is building up or accumulating
power of mantras by repeating them with love and devotion. There are different
types of mantras. Saguna mantras (with form) e.g. Om Namah Sivaya, Om Namo
Narayanana, Hari Om, nirguna mantras (without form) e.g. OM, abstract mantras
e.g. Soham (I am That I am), Aham Brahma Asmi (I am Brahman) and beej mantras
e.g. Aim, Hreem were listed. As there are, many paths to the top of a mountain
so there are many mantras to God realisation. Which one should I chose?
I did not know the correct pronunciation of beej mantras so I could not opt for
them. Abstract mantras were abstruse and nirguna mantras were esoteric. I was
left with only one option -Saguna mantras. It was easy to concentrate on the
image of deity. The author emphasised that neither mantra nor deity once
selected can be changed. To maintain good speed one has to stick to one path,
one mantra and one deity to avoid spread of his/her energies in exploring all
the other alternative paths.
I
feared that if I selected a difficult mantra, I might lose interest after some
time or might found it hard to chant because of change in responsibilities with
time. As I would be bound to one mantra and one deity therefore, I chose the
easiest mantra and the simplest of all the deities so that I could stick to it
throughout my life.
I
fixed an hour for chanting, focusing and meditating on that mantra facing East
at the same place. To my surprise, I started having experiences in meditation
as mentioned in that book just after a few months. Experiences only assured me
that I was moving on the right path but for further progress, I had to ignore
them completely. My goal was not the vibrant lights but the Darshan of the
deity. According to Divine Life Society, if one does the chanting of mantra 13
crores of times with faith and devotion, the deity manifest itself in front of
him/her.
With
time, my responsibilities increased and I could not afford to sit for
meditation for long hours then I decided to chant the mantra while doing my
daily activities like car driving, waiting for business meeting, cooking, walking,
swimming and even while moving in an elevator. My hands were busy with the work
but my mind was remembering God all the time rather most of the time. I had
chanted that mantra crores and crores of times. Yet I had not chanted it 13
crores times!
Constant
repetition of God’s name had helped me to put a check on my negative emotions to
some extent. I was not satisfied with my progress as they sprang up every now
and then. The Nature showered It’s kindness and manifested in the form of Human
Guru as Om Swamiji who not only helped in removing my unpleasant emotions but
also showed the right divine path. His presence, words and teachings removed
the thick dark forest of ignorance and purified me. His grace and presence
spiritually elevated me. He is an ocean of bliss, knowledge and compassion. He
helped me in lifting my head from the quagmire of worldly maya.
Swami Sivananda says, “The Guru is God Himself
manifesting in a personal form to guide the aspirant. Grace of God takes the
form of the Guru. To see the Guru is to see God.”
P.S.- 1. If you missed out the story of Kalavati told by Om
Swamiji then you can watch it here.
2. Amidst my chanting
routine, I never forget to take my daily dose of Pingu, Shaun the Sheep or Chip
and Dale to keep the kid inside me alive. ;)
3. Pic was clicked by me at Kishangarh, Rajasthan