My Spiritual Experience of Watching Live Telecast of Sri Hari Bhagwan's Birthday Celebrations from Sri Badrika Ashram

Tears welled up in my eyes as I mentally visualized my Guru - Om Swamiji and touched His Lotus Feet. I practice it every time as soon as He finishes the discourse without missing a single time. But today was a different experience. As I touched His Feet in my imagination, I also thanked Him for explaining astral travel in simple words. My emotions stirred up as He had blessed me with astral body experience on Aug, 21 which resulted in the emotional flow of salty water from my eyes. I experienced this on 04.04.23 while watching the live telecast of Sri Hari's Birthday Celebration from Sri Badrika Ashram.

Before Aarti was started my eyes were already overflowing with tears, wetting my not so chubby cheeks. As I looked towards Sri Hari Bhagwan, I felt that not only me but He was also crying and His chubby cheeks were wet with tears. 

"Oh my Bhagwan, Please do not cry." In my mind, I was repeatedly saying while trying to wipe the non-stop flow of tears from His Large Lotus Petal Eyes. I forgot to dry my face with a handkerchief. I was now focusing on His tears, wiping them as gently as possible with my soft hands. I felt immense pain in seeing His Face moistened with tears. And I cried more. 

I was crying, He was crying, we both were crying because we were not two but only One!   

My Spiritual Crying While Watching Live Telecast of Sri Hari's Aarti from Sri Badrika Ashram on 03.04.23

As soon as Om Swamiji blew the conch, I started sobbing gently. While He was singing the Aarti of Sri Hari Bhagwan in Sri Badrika Ashram and I was watching the live telecast in my home on 3 April, 23, my sobs turned into crying. During the whole period of singing glories of Lord Sri Hari, I was shedding tears along with loud sobs. The ever benevolent Ma Lakshmi is Mother Nature. Today, instead of scarlet red She was dressed in sea green. Like Nature, She nurtures all beings like a mother taking care of babies. She represents trees, plants, creepers, shrubs, herbs, pastures and all greenery in nature. She also appears as the sun, clouds, moon, river, lake, mountains and soothing breeze. She blesses everyone with wealth, prosperity, name and fame, good fortune, power, health, beauty and fertility. 

I was absorbed in the ever benevolent form of Ma Lakshmi, crying for Her motherly affection. As nature blesses us with uncountable things, I was asking Her to shower Her love in numerous ways on me. I was crying hard like an infant whose mother had not attended her for a long time. I was yearning for Her presence, Her love, Her affection, Her compassion, Her tenderness. All of a sudden, I felt a gentle touch on my head. Did She appear to bless me? 

My continuous loud cries aroused my mother in the adjacent room who was reading a book about Jim Corbette's adventures. She came to my room and gently put her right hand on my head, trying to soothe me, making me comfortable, convincing me that she would always be with me in my cries as well as my laughs.

I had always worshipped her as Ma Lakshmi! :)

My Spiritual Experience of Watching Live Telecast of Sri Hari Aarti from Sri Badrika Ashram on 02.04.23

As soon as I heard the first word of Sri Hari Aarti then I began to sob loudly. It is the energy of Aarti words or Swamiji's powerful intones, I did not know! I felt as if there was deep darkness engulfing the whole world and Ma Kalratri appeared dressed in black on Her vehicle - donkey to remove blackness, ignorance, gloominess, dullness, delusion and negative energies from the society and to bless Her devotees with fearlessness and auspiciousness. She was holding weapons like an iron club with piercing ends and a curved sword in Her arms to destroy all those who had evil thoughts in the battlefield of life and with Her two hands She is blessing Her worshippers with courageousness and felicitousness. 

The darkness imbalance has crippled the mankind. This difference in the society is because of the rich and the poor, educated and uneducated, feeble and strong as well as kind and the brute. I experienced that Mother Kalratri appeared from the dark clouds like a thunderbolt to eradicate this inequality from society and to create an environment of love and harmony.  

My Spiritual Crying While Performing Live NavDurga Yagna Day 9 - 31 March 23 in Sadhana App

While meditating on the tantric eulogy of Mother Divine I started sobbing. My eyes welled up with tears. They started flowing down, wetting my soft cheeks. I was performing live NavDurga Yagna Day 9 - 31 March 23 in Sadhana App. As usual I had already cried a lot while doing yagna on Navaran Mantra and Tantric Mantra of that day.

While meditating on Mother Divine, my mind became silent, the unresolved emotions of my subconsciousness came up on the surface, triggering a very strong emotional urge to cry and to vent out all those suppressed emotions. The negative emotions that flowed out in the form of tears from my eyes helped me in feeling light and free.

It is all Mother Divine's Blessings! :)

Devotional Tears in My Eyes While Performing Live NavDurga Yagna Day 8 - 30 March 23 in Sadhana App

Were the tears coming from lacrimal meat side of eye? It is the area where the small pink globular nodule at the inner corner of eye is present. 

I raised my hand and gently touched my right eye to check. No, they were not flowing from that part of the eye. I was experiencing spiritual crying while performing a live NavDurga Yagna Day 8 - 30 March 23 in Sadhana App. As usual tears started flowing from my eyes while pouring hawan samagri in holy fire while chanting navarna mantra. 

An incidence flashed in my mind! When I once told Neelam Om that I was experiencing spiritual crying too frequently. She shared with me that Om Swamiji told in one of His discourses that the tears of devotion if flowed from the eye corner opposite to nose are of the best and the tears flowing from the eye corner close to the nose are of inferior type and the tears flowing from the middle part of eye are of ok type. After observing myself for sometime I briefed her that most of the time the tears flowed from the middle part of my eyes and many a times from the eye corners that are away from the nose or the eye corners that are close to the ears. But they very rarely came out from the corner of eye close to the nose. 

Almost daily tears are there while performing live yagna on navarna mantra and tantric mantra. No tears while doing yagna on any other mantra nor while watching the recording of the same event.

Next time, whenever you shed tears, tears have a lot to say about your spiritual growth. :)

My Spiritual Experience of Doing Live NavDurga Yagna Day 7 - 29 March 23 in Sadhana App

"Who is gossiping?" Om Swamiji asked this question in the live NavDurga yagna Day 7 - 29 March 23.

I was the first one to raise my hand as most of the time I was conversing  with my mother about relatives, friends, employees, spiritual experiences, books we have read, money matters, business and more. In general, I hardly get the time to talk with her but when I get the opportunity to chat, I always pour out my heart to her. She listens patiently and wisely advises me. During this Navratri, I have spent a lot of time with her.

I am like a backbencher who gossips incessantly irrespective of who is teaching and what is being taught in the class.

As soon as Swamiji started chanting navarna mantra, I began to cry like a child whose mother is lost in a crowded place. I was sobbing uncontrollably for motherly affection. Although I have a very benevolent mother still I was longing for the Universal love, the love for all beings. I was weeping for the Divine Intimacy, the tenderness and warmth only Divine Mother has. The burning sensations around my heart chakra intensified as I yearned more for Her. I kept crying for Her gentle and caring touch even while performing yagna on the tantric mantra of the day.
I am like a front bencher who paid attention to each and every word taught in the class.

This is only Divine Grace! :)

My Spiritual Experience of Doing Live NavDurga Yagna Day 6 - 28 March 23 in Sadhana App

Tears of devotion flowed from my eyes as I visualized gracious Ma Katyayani while chanting the navarna mantra and tapping the hawan samagri button in Sadhana App. Along with other devotees, I was doing NavDurga Yagna Day 6 - 28 March 23 live with Om Swamiji during the wee hours. In the beginning of the yagna Swamiji stated the importance of mansik yagna over the yagna done with ingredients, that we immediately feel the difference, a shift in the consciousness after doing the mansik pooja. It helps to focus completely on the deity rather than the ingredients, the process and the surroundings. I always love to do mansik pooja as it saves my time to clean up the things after the yagna is over. :D

There was a constant flow of joy of tears from my eyes while Swamiji was chanting the navarna mantra in His dynamic voice. My tears were the purification of soul-cry. Immersed in Ma Katyayani's Universal Love, I was shedding ceaseless tears on the Lotus Feet of Mother Divine. My devotion towards Her filled my heart and my soul with deep love, a yearning for Her full vision.

As Dr. Antony Theodore said, "Tears flowed down in my soul." The drops of salty water are the words that my heart can not say or express. Dipped in Mother's devotional love, I was drinking this nectar of ecstasy even while pouring the ingredients in the holy fire while chanting the tantric mantra 'Aing Malinye Swaha'. The love I felt for Her was like a fire which burnt nothing but all my desires!

If tears of love, joy, and ecstasy have not washed your cheeks, you are yet to taste life. - Sadhguru